Langbeschreibung
Catherine de Courcy, an Irish emigrant, spent 15 years of her life with John Johnson, an Australian army officer who was a Vietnam veteran devoured by post-traumatic stress. John's struggles eventually led him to take his own life. After his violent suicide Catherine was faced with an overwhelming grief, which she chose to confront head on. Unflinchingly and without self-pity, Catherine de Courcy looks at the hidden aspects of grief and how to manage the strange and unsettling challenges the loss of a loved one provokes. She also portrays with sympathy and honesty the devastating impact of post-traumatic stress on a Vietnam veteran long after the war.
Inhaltsverzeichnis
1 The end 1 2 Aftermath 5 3 The funeral 14 4 Peace and memory 22 5 Reality check 28 6 Travelling with John 33 7 Leaving the farm 40 8 Grief emerging 46 9 Therapy 57 10 Desert travels 64 11 John's last month 73 12 Talking to John 83 13 The spiritual dimension 87 14 Return to the desert 93 15 Homeopathic escapade 99 16 Birthday gift 104 17 First anniversary 107 18 New Year's Eve 112 19 Self-absorption 117 20 Waiting for grief to pass 125 21 Letting John go 129 22 Discarding the widow's black 132 23 Post-traumatic stress unleashed 136 24 A new relationship with John 167 25 Ending our marriage 171 26 Emotional spring clean 178 27 Memories of Ireland 185 28 Leaving Australia 192 29 A returned emigrant 196 30 John's childhood and youth in England 201 31 Establishing roots in Ireland 208 32 Interview with The Irish Times 214 33 Death of my father 222 34 Breaking down the barriers 227 35 Ending the grief 232 Epilogue 238 Acknowledgements 247 Bibliography 249